Jacob and the angel

‘ Vandaag in Tate Britain heel veel mooie dingen gezien, maar dit manshoge marmeren beeld raakte diep. Een woest aantrekkelijke engel omarmt (bedrijft de liefde met) een vrouw. De overgave, de kracht en de schoonheid is overweldigend.’

Dit was mijn oorspronkelijke beschrijving van het beeld. Later kwam ik er pas achter dat dit beeld de worsteling van Jacob met de engel voorstelde. Deze vergissing intrigeerde mij: hoe kon ik een worsteling tussen twee mannen verwarren met een engel die vrijt met een vrouw?

http://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/epstein-jacob-and-the-angel-t07139

Sacred prostitution

No mud, no lotus. It is my belief that our challenge is to reconcile all opposites in harmony. All is one. This can only be done by embracing and understanding opposites. Sacred prostitution is one of them. But again: this is not a thing for woman alone. There is so much to be done: men also need to step up and do their share. To be continued…

The Dakini Witch Hunt: Is She a Priestess or a Prostitute?

 

Analysing Faust’s unconditional love

Yesterday I watched Faust the 1926 brilliant classic by W. Murnau.

Faust is the story of a wager between the devil and Archangel Michael that in the end Man is incorruptible. If the devil is able to corrupt the soul of a genius called Faust, the world will be his. So, in the town where Faust lives, the devil starts a huge plague epidemic. Faust, with all his knowledge and faith is unable to find a cure and desperately he turns to the devil for support. He signs a contract to sell his soul with his own blood. However, after having all the powers in the world, people do not accept his healing powers, because they come from the devil and not from God. Faust is disillusioned and wants to die, but the devil seduces him to give him his youth again. Full of youthful energy Faust goes on a bounty hunt to taste all pleasures in life. Eventually, this does not fulfil him and he longs for home (Heimat). At the Easter feast he meets Gretchen on her way to the church for a mass and he falls madly in love with her. He asks the Devil to make Gretchen love him as well. After magically courting her, Faust ends up in her room where they make love. But the devil warns both her mother and brother. Her mother finds the two lovers in an embrace, has a faint and dies. Her brother duels with Faust and the devil stabs him to death. Faust and the devil flee and leave Gretchen alone to her misery. She is sentenced to the pillory and a great shame befalls her. Nine months later, on a winter Christmas day, she delivers the child of Faust in an abandoned open stable. She is poor and nobody will help her. Finally, in a fantasy she sees a warm cradle for the baby to sleep in. In reality however, she buries the child in the snow. When she is found, she is prosecuted for the murder of het baby and sentenced to burn on the stake. Gretchen shrieks out a cry, so powerful that Faust hears it many lands far away. He orders the devil to take him to Gretchen and to prevent her death. The devil brings him, but is unwilling to prevent her death. When Faust sees his youthful stupidity, he wishes to be old and wise again. Gladly the devil returns Faust to his old self. Faust runs up to Gretchen to ask forgiveness, but she does not recognize this old man. When Gretchen is set on the stake and set on fire, Faust runs after her and joins her on the stake. He is an old man, but Gretchen recognizes in the eyes of Faust his younger self. Whilst burning they embrace and kiss. Their sins are absolved by love and together they ascend to heaven. In the end scene, the devil goes to Michael with Faust’s signed contract and he demands the world. Michael rejects the contract, however. There is one thing which absolves all contracts in the world and this is: Love.
End.

Our lost and suffering men

Dit filmpje raakt me. Mannen in onze maatschappij zijn lost. Gevangen tussen hardcore consumentisme aan de ene kant en het goed ontwikkelde gevoelsleven van de vrouw aan de andere kant. Mannen weten niet meer wat het is om man te zijn omdat het ze niet meer wordt geleerd door hun vader. Hun vader heeft het ook niet meer geleerd. Door de mechanisatie en automatisatie is een eeuwenlange traditie van manneninitiatie verloren gegaan. Het antwoord op de vraag: hoe kun je krachtig zijn in je kwetsbaarheid en andersom. Het boek Iron John heeft voor mij in dit opzicht veel betekend. Mannen zijn lost vandaag de dag en velen moeten zichzelf initieren. Misschien dat mannengroepen hier een bijdrage aan kunnen leveren.

RIP Helena

IM Helena
Onlangs is Helena overleden. Zij heeft intens samengewerkt met ritual artist Sebastian Holzuber.
Voor mij was Helena een Christen in hart en nieren, maar totaal niet dogmatisch. Sterker nog: samen met Sebastian vocht ze liefdevol tegen alle dogma’s. Door middel van vreemde en humoristische rituelen brak ze door starre muren van zo hoort het naar de open vrije ruimten van zo kan het ook.
Ik heb Helena enkele malen mogen ontmoeten, maar de meest indrukwekkende ontmoeting was tijdens een ritueel wat ik samen met Sebastian heb gedaan met Allerzielen op 1 November 2014.
Dit ritueel was genaamd Dance of the Passion en daarin heb ik op verschillende muziek op verschillende manieren om een kruis gedanst. Dit ritueel had uiteraard een grote verwijzing naar Jesus, maar met een wijnbladerenkrans om mijn hoofd was er ook een verwijzing naar Dionysus. Aan het eind van het ritueel, bij het nummer ‘Mache dich mein Herze rein’ van de Matthauspassion, kwam Helena erbij.
‘At the last song, at the end of the ritual, Helena walked into the room. Helena has been a nun in a convent for 34 years. Now, at the age of 91, she has been working with ritual artist Sebastian Holzuber for 17 years. When she hold me at the cross the hole experience transcended. It was as if I was Jesus and she Maria mourning over me. At that moment I understood the sorrow, suffering and redemption on the cross. This moment showed me the intense Passion of the Christ. I had a realisation that when being in complete fulfilment of your life, looking up to the Heavens, seeing all the sorrow and still knowing that you are loved. I felt an enormous redemption. For me this was as close as a Beatific Vision as I would have dared to hope.
After the ritual I embraced Helena with Sebastian and I deeply felt ‘We are all redeemed’. Helena said: ‘you turned the cross from an instrument of torture into an instrument of salvation’. This was a profound and healing experience. I felt truly blessed.’
Dank je wel Helena dat je jouw licht met ons zo genereus hebt willen delen. Zo zacht en vriendelijk als een lam en tegelijk zo onverschokken en krachtig als een leeuw.
Rust zacht Helena.

Paradox of flow

Paradox of flow
In the past I thought that flow was connected to an outer manifestation of flow. I defined making a circel wth your arms as flow and going up and down with your arm as staccato. Now I realise that flow comes from within. It is the intention to which you move. You can make a circle with your arms being tense and you can make a staccato movement which looks sharp without tension. The Gurdjieff Movements are all about non-tension Movements. But in order to practise this they are filled with many staccato movements! Movements in flow, without tension, are non-mechanical movements. These are conscious movements by your Will. The Movements are physical, emotional and intelletual challenges in order to remain in flow and attentive in all circumstances which life can demand from us.

  • myth of sisyphus – would he be able to carry the rocks in flow and without effort?