Breakthru!

This morning I woke up with Queen’s Breakthru in my head. I can remember when I was a child and I first saw it on tv. I loved it. Now, I looking back at the clip with spiritual glasses on, I love it even more! To me this is a typical Yod song and quite appropriate for the time of the year. It is about pure Force on a one-way track towards Wisdom. It is the seed on a quest for fertilization. Breaking everything on its path. Determined. With no right or left turns. This is pure Attraction. Yes, this song makes me smile indeed. 🙂

Measuring Ecstaticness of Dance

Since 3.5 months I am going to ecstatic dance with a heart rate belt on.
Ecstatic dance is a powerful energetic and spiritual dance. And my heart rate and calorie burn are my only means of knowing how deep or intense a dance has been.
So, after 3.5 months I had a look at the stats. Usually, I dance a bit under two hours (1.57) at a time. My average heart rate is 124 and my average burning of kcalc’s is 1361.
I have measured my progress of my condition by dividing my heart rate to my burned calories. The more calories I burn with a lower heart rate, the better my condition is. Thus the higher the HRC index, the better is my performance. My average HRC index is 10.91.

Kylo Ren – the unnecessary villain

This evening I watched Star Wars episode VII – The Force Awakens. –spoiler alert-
I was very much intrigued by Kylo Ren and more particular why he turned to the Dark Side. We know very little of how it came to pass. But we do know that he is the son of princess Leia and Han Solo. Also he received a Jedi training by Luke Skywalker. Then apparently something went amiss. He was turned to the Dark side by an evil figure called Snoke. In the movie, Kylo shows a huge admiration for his grandfather Darth Vader…
As an ‘evil’ character Kylo Ren is interesting in the sense that he can be a cold blooded killer, very hot headed but also very sensitive. He is very powerful, yet he loses the fight with the strong-willed but weak trained Rey. Like a teenager he has not yet learned to control his emotions.
How is this possible after being trained as a Jedi and not having suffered a trauma (that we know of) in his youth like Anakin?
I see two possible explanations. The first one is a depressing deterministic one: deep within himself Kylo is evil. No matter what teaching he would have had, Kylo would eventually turn to the Dark Side. This explanation would defeat the purpose of the battle for good and evil and thus cannot be true.
The second explanation would be Kylo’s upbringing. At first glance nothing much seems to be wrong here (that we know of). He has special and loving parents and his Jedi teacher Luke is also gifted and positive.
So how could evil Snoke find Kylo, and even persuade him to turn to the Dark Side?
My guess is: Kylo’s parents and Luke never told him of his dark inheritance: his grandfather Darth Vader. Just like with Anakin and Luke, the Jedi training consist of focusing on the good and there is no room for negative emotions. As Yoda put it: “Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.” And as a result fear is not addressed.

And thus Snoke was able to convince Kylo to turn to the Dark Side. That his loved ones lied to him about his illustrious grandfather Darth Vader and. Surely, a teenager like Kylo wants to go and find out who this intriguing Darth Vader is?!
The question is: would Kylo still have turned to the dark side when his loved ones would have taught him about Darth Vader and, more importantly, also about Anakin Skywalker?
I think not. I think that Kylo Ren turned to the Dark Side, because the Jedi were not able to learn from their mistake with Anakin. The tendency of the Jedi training to repress the negative instead of facing it and integrating it, eventually leads to the Dark Side.

Over het belang van het stellen van de grail question: onderzoek in compassie

Bijna 3 jaar geleden had ik wat geschreven over Ongelovige Thomas en ik ben het er nog steeds mee eens. Op dit moment houd ik bij bezig met de Arthurian legends. Daarin staat de zogenaamde Grail question centraal. Het verhaal gaat als volgt. Een ridder kom in het graalkasteel, ziet de wonderlijkste dingen zich voltrekken. Echter hij is zo onder de indruk van dit alles, dat hij vergeet de vraag te stellen wat het allemaal inhoudt. De volgende dag wordt hij wakker in een leeg kasteel en zwerft hij doelloos rond. Pas wanneer de ridder (Parisval) compassie leert ervaren, is hij in staat de grail question te stellen en op quest te gaan. Na vele omzwervingen komt hij weer terug in de grail burcht en verlost hij, door het stellen van de vraag, de koning van zijn wond en wordt het land geheeld. De graalvraag bestaat wat mij betreft uit twee delen. Enerzijds is er het medeleven en de compassie in de ander. Dit is de start van de quest. Maar vervolgens is er ook het onderzoek van wat graal nu eigenlijk is. Alleen door vragen te stellen en door te begrijpen hoe dingen werken kun je de verschillende ridders verslaan en het land bevrijden. In de Arthur legenden is in de verschillende quests veel esotherische kennis verstopt over hoe welke ridders het beste overwonnen kunnen worden. Deze kennis ligt voor het oprapen, maar dan moet je wel de vraag stellen.

Ecstatic dance sacrifice

Vanavond weer gedanst bij Ecstatic dance. Meer en meer realiseer ik mij, dat voor mij geldt: mijn ego moet sterven op de dansvloer. Mijn ego is een vrijwillige offering aan de Dans. Opdat mijn ziel kan verschijnen. Deze offering moet ik zelf maken. Dat kan niemand anders voor mij doen. De muziek niet, de andere dansers niet, de sfeer niet. Nee, alleen ikzelf. Soms gaat dat makkelijker dan andere keren en vanavond was een van de minder gemakkelijke avonden. Toch ging ik door. Sleuren, trekken, en geduldig wachten op dat moment dat mijn ego zich vermoeid gewonnen geeft. En dan ineens, plots, valt alle moeite weg. Ik voel me een met mijn omgeving. Een glimlach verschijnt op mijn gezicht. Flow. Ecstase. En ik bid.

Passionate quest for truth

This period of the year is the time of going inward and to find new and deeper truths about ourselves. Truths are convenient personal operating tools for the ego. You can only see those truths which you are able to handle. But when you shed one truth for a more profound one, beneath this new truth another truth lays waiting for you. There will always be deeper truths, but the purpose of a truth is to give you a stable environment of the ego in which your soul can develop. Continuous letting go of truths is a way of living, a quest so to speak. Obtaining one great spiritual truth, stopping there and becoming a guru is not enlightenment. This is spiritual laziness. The trick is to let go of truth when the time is right. As you don’t want to crack the egg before the chick is grown, you also don’t want to leave a full grown chicken in the egg. When people stop Dancing often a chicken starts growing in the egg. Truth requires you to leave your comfort zones behind and this is often a painful process as new truths destroy old ideas and dogmas. But this is the way of the passionate truth.

Pervert Park or how society deals with sex effenders

Zeer indrukwekkende documentaire op de VPRO gezien: Pervert Park. Een park in Florida waar zedendelinquenten opgevangen en gerehabiliteerd worden. Over het stigma van sex offenders hoe zij buiten de samenleving worden gezet als zijnde monsters. Maar ook hoe zij zo geworden zijn. 9 van de 10 keer zijn ze zelf ook seksueel misbruikt. Over hoe straffen niet werkt, maar alleen een dieper begrip van hun eigen gedrag de vicieuze cirkel kan doorbreken. Een voormalig sex offender zei: ‘we zitten hier met 120 mensen. Natuurlijk denken mensen dat we monsters zijn en hun dochters aan gaan randen. Maar wij zijn 120 ambassadeurs die kunnen laten zien dat we mensen zijn en geen monsters meer.’ Something to think about zo vlak na de misstanden in Keulen.